Stone…….

I feel like stone. Do you know what I mean?

No I did not say stoned! I am not into drugs, thank you very much. I feel like stone as in a rock.

The world is moving and changing around me. Lives are falling apart and yet I am unmoved. I am shedding no tears or changing my behavior. But I want change!

Dear God,

Change me. I don’t like who I am right now. I want you to change me. I want my heart to beat again for your people. I want to feel their pain. Please put back into me the desire to be a better person and to love the people around me. Please help me to express that love in a way that respects my family. I am not the person I want to be but you can make me into the person I need to be.

I am afraid that some people will call this depression or depressing. It isn’t intended that way. If anything, I want it to be hopeful. In a changing world, there is One that doesn’t change. He can change us, soften our hearts and make us feel the things that need to be felt. I have no self-loathing but I want to feel, again for people.

 

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